October rolls in.

Restlessness and mediocrity and blah-ness and inadequacy.

I don't really know who I am or what I'm doing right now. I feel like I've forgotten how to write, how to photograph, how to create.

Seventeen and confused and that's how it's supposed to be, right?

But also:

joy and wonder and love and so much happiness you could cry.

Or laugh.

Or both.

My biggest sister Alina was in town for a few weeks. I love her muchly. And I hate that she and Amanda live over four thousand miles away.

We went out for lunch the other day and there was a little bug at the bottom of her salad, bathed in vinegar. I guess that's the risk you take at farm-to-table restaurants? But she got her lunch for free, as is right, and she didn't mind too much because goodness knows this family is into discounts ;)

"Cherish this, cause when it don't last, you wish you did."

The Mowgli's are ringing true.